I can never find the exact words to put my thoughts that are in my head out into the universe. This guy right here has decided that he wants to be with me for the rest of his life. ME? Of all people! I still can't believe it.
I have never felt this way about anyone in my entire life. If you think about it, we as humans interact with hundreds if not thousands of other people in our lifetimes, and we have some sort of relationship with each of them. But then we find this one person who we would die for, who we would sacrifice for, who we would give everything for. It really is a beautiful thing.
I have always been the type of person to help someone if they ask me for my help (and try not to grumble about it). But when I fell for Brendan I found myself thinking about him all day long everyday, thinking, "what could I do for him to make his life easier/better?" Serving him is my favorite thing. I have found someone that I would put before myself any day and every single day. And I happily do it. Because I love him.
I remember the night that the "L" word was said. We had been in an official relationship for about a month and I thought I loved him (I love him more now than that day and more and more everyday). He was driving me around in his truck and he kept saying, "Kodi, you know I really care about you?" And I would blush and laugh shyly, and say, "Yes, I really care about you too babe!" I just remember him saying it over and over again and I thought it was quite funny! Then he finally gathered up the courage and said, "Kodi, I love you!" My heart started beating so fast, but everything around me felt like slow motion. I couldn't help but smile, and laugh and in that moment everything clicked. This felt right, this felt good. "Brendan, I love you too!" We squeezed each others hands and all of the problems, anxieties, worries of my world just seemed to melt away. This was right, this was good.
Now I tell Brendan I love him probably a million times a day and I'm sure it gets annoying but I never want him to forget that. I never want him to think that I don't love him. I love him forever, every day, every minute, and every second. He is my person and I am his and I couldn't be more happy.
